I am like dirt under your shoe
Or a children’s book you forgot you had
Like an ache that you can’t bother to heal
Like I was just someone, anyone, no one at all
Words that sound like poetry
Coat your mouth like caramel
Sweet, indulgent but really
Just a sticky mass of unhealthy sugar
It hurts again. I thought it could never be
As bad as the last time
But it’s worse and more crushing
Because I didn’t think I would let myself hurt this way
No one but myself, no friends who understand
Just a room with little corners
Where I cry until my legs fall numb
Until I turn into an irrational mess of a person
What am I to you? Just a girl you convince yourself is the one
Who your heart doesn’t allow to love enough
Subconsciously, you push me away
It hurts to feel like nothing to you
