I wish I was

I wish I was your Princess

The girl you'd waited for

The one for whom you'd do anything

If she came knocking on your door

I wish nothing else mattered

When you looked in my eyes

And everything else came second

When you had me as the prize

I wish every time I cried

You'd swear to heal my pain

And as long as life was in you

Never let me cry again

But I am not your Princess

I'm not your perfect bride

Even if you swear otherwise

This truth I know, inside

Summer Day

Heat sweating.

You laugh.

We tickle.

You say little jokes

Small little jokes.

We find shade

Only to laugh more.

Only to touch

Gently. Pretend

It didn't happen.

Eyes dance

Mine laugh

With intensity.

Sudden joy

That you are here

Listening

Not listening

Looking the other way.

I pull you towards me

Pushing letting go

Closer

Then further.

It's a game.

The laughter sinks in

Like the sunlight

In the city's heat.

I told you secrets

Little dark spiders

That web in my brain.

You understand.

Strangers no more

I have found you.

Discovery

That makes day

Lighter fuller

With laughter

Silliness

Immaturity

Playfulness.

Taboo

It began with a playful fight on a lawn

Little shoves and tugs from which were born

Something, a spark, a tiny flicker

A trickling stream that was bound to get thicker

Tickles slowly replaced the pinches

And distances between us reduced to inches

That night, easily, naturally, without a pause

I found my fingers tangled in yours

I know I should have, could have stopped

But sparks ignite with a mere drop

Of fuel; A touch, a glance a smile suffices

The fire, it grows like a beast and rises

One minute, a glass of beer in hand

The next, everything we'd planned

Melted down to nothing and instead

We fell over each other on our rooftop bed

We laughed and rolled and kissed all night

And all that was wrong, seemed so right

I don't know where to go from here

So for just a minute more, stay with me here

Small Poems

Tiny things, little tiny poems that happen when I can't sleep. <3

When you appeared

Like a baby in a china shop

You toddled over to me

I knew, at that moment

You were going to stay awhile

Suddenly, without warning

Without wanting it to

Love flooded me, beautifully

I breathed again.

Your curls

Brown, orange, maybe even red

Naughty, unruly, soft

They epitomize you

They flirt with my memories of you

Cultural Differences

Language, hometown, habits, tastes

Where did we find the connection?

It’s invisible, but strong enough.

Little Things

A laugh. A girl’s name that annoys me.

Your eyes. Your cheekiness.

Your midnight kisses.

The nine-month-time-of-my-life

Distances

Airplane tickets divide us

Time not enough, feet too slow

If only.

Promises

As if you mean them with all your heart

You make promises, so many

They are broken like fragile pots

I still would bet my life that you’ll keep them

Impressions

Eyes closed, eyes open

Either way, you appear

On my heart, mind and soul

You leave your gentle footprints

Insomnia

Some nights I wait for you, hours and hours

You never come

Some nights I dream with eyes open

Of our happiness

Don’t

Don’t leave me just yet, there’s more

Don’t give up already, we have a chance

Don’t change your mind, it’s not over

I’m terrified you’ll forget about me

Addictive

I want to get out before you hurt me again

But your eyes are honest

Your kisses soothing

I give myself another chance with you

The Day You Left

A hot, blistering day begins

With a flustered morning

Waiting for you, pining, aching

Your call, a whiff of your voice

And I race to the door

And wait and wait and wait

Until your curly hair enters

My field of vision. Escalator

Ascending. Blue shirt. Shoulders.

You walk the wrong way

And I run, run, run...

Embrace. Relief. Peace.

I cling onto you for life

With time ticking frantically

Every minute bursts

With the pang of your departure

Every time you look at me

Mixed with the happiness you bring

Come waves and waves of sadness

And we walk. Hot, sweaty, hand in hand

The sun can't burn away

The hurt I feel looking at you

My stomach churns with dread

For when you'll say goodbye

My blue-shirt-curly-haired handsome

You stand by the gate with me

Wanting to stay and needing to leave

I curse the forces that pull you from me

I hold back the rain

Choking my eyes, burning

And try to smile. Try to let you go.

I can't. A hug. Another. Another.

Can't erase the heaviness I feel

So, as always, I run from my sadness

I walk away from you, faster

Hoping you don't see me and cry

Sitting in a bus stop

Head in my hands, trying

To numb out the hurt

You see me. You mouth something

I don't understand

I am drawn to you

Like a magnet

I follow the blue shirt in the rickshaw

I follow you like a lost puppy

I run, run, run...

Hoping, irrationally, that you will stop

And come back to me

Instead you accelerate

Around a bend, I lose sight

Of the blue shirt. I'm blind

With hot, lava-like tears

Sweating panting running

Trying to catch a glimpse

A flash, a touch of blue

In the crowded street ahead

Nothing but my ragged breath

Alien unattractive strangers

And thoughts of kisses, laughs, tentative smiles

Of a tiny silver ring on a big finger

Of your quick entry into my world

And your even swifter departure

The tears rain on ceaselessly

I walk and walk and walk and walk

To nowhere; lost without you

No polestars, no blue shirts

For direction

I still cannot fathom the pain

This goodbye brings

He's just not you

He's so gorgeous
His lines outrageous
He makes the first move
But he's just not you

He's naughty, like a child
He's crazy and wild
It's great, he's funny too
But he's just not you

He flirts with me all the time
But he doesn't make me rhyme
He's fresh, he's new
But he's just not you

HE can't write beautiful songs
He can't make me belong
In your arms like you do
No one could ever be you.

Wishes

Let us marry on a beach

With white rosed garlands
Let our parents bless us
With all their hearts
Let our footprints on the sand
Never erase from memory
No matter that they were
Erased by the sea

Let us spend those first years
Like new lovers
Discovering each others'
Bodies, minds, souls
Let the passion never die
Despite the years that pass
Let our hands always hold
To comfort each other

Let our every thought, word and action
Be infused with gentleness
Let we never lie or betray
And if we ever do
Let us forgive in time
If ever there is a doubt of fading love
Let it dissolve at once
When we are in each others' arms

Let the harsh words that we speak
Be drowned by the laughter
Of our children
Let them reflect our childhood
And remind us to be carefree

Let us never be too busy
To say, "I love you"
Let our arguments be peaceful
I hope work never forces us
To neglect our family
Or to neglect our love






I wrote this one night when I couldn't get sleep. These wishes are things that i know will never really come true, little girls like to wish upon stars. I just wanted to write down my insane hopes. I don't know if it classifies as poetry, but it is the song of my heart and I hope that counts.

There's Something About You

This isn't serious poetry; i was just having some fun :)

Something about you makes me smile
Just thinking of our times together
And when I start, I can't seem to stop
Proof of how much we love each other

Something about you melts my heart
I feel a longing to cuddle in your hug
I want to hold your face in my hands
Sit on a couch with you and a coffee mug

Something about you tickles my ribs
I roll around in a giggly fit
You cheered me up with all that humour
My dark days with laughter you lit

Something about you tears me up
Because our time is running out
Is it my fear that forever can never happen?
Yet in the depth of our love, I know no doubt

Something about you turns me on
Well, everything about you does
From your voice to your wrists to your yummy kiss
Just a bed, some chocolate and us!

Sweet Surrender...again

I began a chapter of my life with Sweet Surrender, and now I close it.

What's this thing I've never felt
I find so hard to define?
With these feelings I've never dealt
Come near me, I'll be fine

For so long life revolved
Now you, the center shifts
And all at once, life dissolves
The wings of love now lift

I walk myself down that wondrous road
Every footstep a precious memory
Every bloom a kiss, on the path we strode
Now simply a silent reverie

Those gentle words you whispered
Still float in the tunnels of my mind
And I, breathless enraptured
Know that you, darling, are one of a kind

Like midnight without a star
Like a rose without its hue
Like day break without a sunrise afar
Life loses its magic without you

Time passes like the blink of an eye
Where the years went, I sigh in wonder
But love, you taught me how to fly
I'm glad to you, I surrendered

Time of My LIfe

I keep writing about all we did
Held hands, spoke with our eyes
And I forget to write down
How you make me feel
Or rather, avoid the act
For my mind would search so deep
To find apt words
These mortal feelings cannot be described
By a million immortal words
So ephemeral
Drifting between the shadows
Of reality and magic
Feelings of unencompassible love
Of sudden bursts of fury
That die with a thought of you
Of stretched hours of loneliness
Surrounded by people
Yet in my own dark corner
Of searing fits of pain
The separation, the distance, the silence
Rings like an ominous bell

Letting Go

Face to face, eye to eye
You're all I ever wanted
I turn away with a sigh
I'm forced to let you go

Hand in hand, it's still a lie
I want an impossible future
I smile, inside I cry
For everything I'm losing

Illusions everywhere around
Who knows right from wrong?
We speak without a sound
Everything and nothing makes sense

We are simply two freinds
We try to convince ourselves
But in this profound silence
Our Love betrays us

Easy Trust

Why stranger do you listen
To my angst and sorrow
How does your act
Sponge away my pain

You find my fingers
Your heart beats
With my ever aching heart
You taste my tears

Stranger, I do not know
Where you head
Yet, I lay bare all
The shadows of my past

You speak not in reply
But the fever ebbs away
Like a line of mercury
In a thermometer

These moments you hear
My quivering voice, I try
To hide myself and my tears
But you set them free

Stay stranger, I shall unveil
Your mysteries
Let us ease our loneliness
Let me discover your shadows

Love

The moonlight's glitter on the ocean
Couldn't be as beautiful as love

A flower in springtime bloom
Couldn't be as joyful as love

A snowflake on a tree branch
Couldn't be as delicate as love

The fiery hot glare of the sun
Couldn't be as passionate as love

A star studded midnight
Couldn't be as magical as love

A footprint upon a golden coast
Couldn't be as ephemeral as love

The blood flowing through every vein
Couldn't be as life-giving as love

The forest sawed down that regenerates
Couldn't be as forgiving as love

A shower of rain in the desert
Couldn't be as soothing as love

A fantastic insect with glittering wings
Couldn't be as alluring as love

The wind that carries a kite
Couldn't be as uplifting as love

And yet, a plague across the nations
Couldn't be as devastating as love

I Will Miss...

Your gorgeous eyes so brown
Your comfort when I'm feeling down
Your touch that turns me on
That caresses long after you're gone
Your kiss that tastes so sweet
The drum of your heart beat
Your body's perfect contours
Your shoulders and their curvature
Your laugh that bursts from inside
The thought of being your future bride
The stolen kisses in the guitar room
The more-than-just-kisses in your bedroom
Your jokes that tickle my bones
Your voice whispering in gentle tones
Your hands as soft as butter
The words of love you utter
Your cute, mixed up accent
The fifteen minute breaks we spent
How you always lend a listening ear
As my words pour out, so do my fears
The random songs you sing
The infinite joy you bring
How you love the things I write
How your hug makes things alright
The ink marks on your fingers
The scent of you that lingers
Your body so perfectly made
Your faith in God that never fades
Your compliments I always refuse
The things you own in orange hues

The list goes on and shall never end
For try as I might I can't pretend
My insides clench, my knees grow weak
My throat is dry, I cannot speak
I want to cry, "baby please stay"
But I know you have to go away
So every night in my mind's abyss
I find something new that I will miss

Today

Today I thought you wouldn't show
But you came an hour late
I thought I would only get to say hello
But we began to communicate
I thought I could keep my hands controlled
But they reached for yours eagerly
I thought i couldn't get close today
But you came closer to me
I thought you wouldn't see me dance
But you caught me moving my hips
I thought I could stop wanting you
But inches apart were our lips
Today my hands and feet were hurting
But your touch went over the bruise
I felt so tried I could have dropped
But your voice through the room diffused
Today, I thought would be so terrible
But your fingers ran down my arm
I thought today would be like any other
But your presence itself is a charm

A Poem That Isnt Poetic

I was trying to write you a poem
But how can i confine to meter, rhyme
These feelings that flow so furiously
They coagulate, I choke
And not one thing comes out

Because every time you are near
I still get the shivers
I still want to get closer
And the times we're apart
I ache to see you again
I dream of your liquid eyes

If i could write you a song, I would
But I'm no musician
I can't find the words
If i could stay in your arms longer, I would
But time slips away
Things get in the way

And like clay without moisture
Or brooks without laughter
Like morning grass without dew
I would be incomplete without you

You make me laugh
In that wonderful way you do
It feels so light, so good
To know i can always laugh with you

And your every touch, every whisper, every kiss
Every move has me transfixed
Has me begging for more
Like the way you say so softly, "i love you"
Like the words would shatter if they
Weren't uttered so
As if you mean it in the most gentle way
I know you mean it

Even if tomorrow we part
To have loved you
So understanding, funny, weird,
So forgetful, sensitive, open, kind,
So full of unconditional love
And to know you have loved me
That i am worthy of this
It is enough happiness
To last me a lifetime

The way you have moved me
How you showed what it felt like
To be truly loved
How you held me so close to you
I could feel your heart beat
I knew at that moment
How perfectly we fit together

I could never hope to find
A person like you
And we are so lucky
To have found each other

I love you...

Eyes of Silence

Sounds buzz like flitting bees
The loundness
Into the atmosphere sinks

Indifferently people talk, walk by
Uncaringly
Insensitivity surrounding them

Your eyes in all their gentleness
Sparkling peace
Calm my chaotic insides

They of quiet assurance
Unravel
Confusion's tangled nets

When mine burn furious red
Your eyes
Love-filled cool the heat

Smoothing my sharpest corners
Thank you
You make all the difference

La Langue De L'Amour

Dans la langue de l’amour
Je t’écris une poème
Parceque je t’adore
Et tu m’aime le même

Les chansons qui tu chante
Les mots qui tu parle, doux
Tu m’enchante
Chaque jour, plus en plus

Je ne suis pas une femme de lettres
Mais mon amour, ecoute-moi
La place je veux être
Est seul avec toi

TRANSLATION

In the language of love
I write you a poem
Because i adore you
And you love me the same

The songs that you sing
The words that you speak, sweet
You enchant me
Every day, more and more

I am not a woman of letters
But my love, listen to me
The place i want to be
Is only with you

Square One

Back to square one
Through stormy seas
To well deserved peace
Another first kiss

Back to square one
Comfortable space
Your fingers trace
Me in familiar bliss

Back to square one
Knowing secrets
Promising to keep it
So easy now to trust

Back to square one
Forgetting past fears
Embracing now and here
Inhibitions turn to dust

Holding hands and pacing
Finishing where we had begun
Don’t know what we’re chasing
You and I, back to square one

Something Lost In the Rain

I remember your music
The day you stilled me
The day you filled me
With love pure and thick
To find you was to be alive

Our drunken promises
The ones we keep
The ones that sleep
In our reminisces
"Don't think, just dive"

And smooth sailing 'twas
Sun bright
Or moonlight
Submitting not to human laws
A lie we lived all these days

We betrayed so many, their trust
We were fools
Breaking rules
How gullible love makes us
Was it us, or Fate's cruel ways

All our crazy fantasies
Like free flying
Like never dying
Or lovers in white peace
The dreams fall to the floor

So we ran and ran so far
Away from here
Anywhere but here
Fuelled by our beating hearts
Only to meet a vaulted door

Stop! Screech to a halt
Is this the end?
Can we still pretend
Our misfortunes are not our fault?
If only, if only, if only..

Iron strength melts to butter
Don't say goodbye
Don't say don't cry
These wounds will never get better
Suddenly we are so lonely

Lying here, the words resonate
You're alone
You're alone
Stifled by the world I hate
And like blood the hope drains

A new day must dawn now
Get set
To forget
A fresh breath to allow
And cleanse ourselves in the rain