Poetic Experimentation

Highway Rider

2011-08-21T21:55:00.005+05:30

Bike.

Buzzed on beer.

Buttons black leather jacket.

Speed.

Stargazing.

Shedding all inhibitions.

Slow.

Succumbing

Steadily to alcohol.

Swerve!

Split-second.

Suddenly thrown into air.

Blood.

Broken bones.

Barely alive at nineteen.

Firsts

2010-11-18T22:37:00.002+05:30

The first time we spoke

Over a song. Over a joke.

Sudden friends

The very first spark

In a bus. In the dark.

But you didn't notice

Our first week across states

Couldn't stand it. Couldn't wait.

To see you again

Your first confession

Changing course. Confusion.

Pulse escalates

First kiss

Bliss. Bliss.

Heaven in your arms

Nobody

2010-07-02T01:33:00.002+05:30

I am like dirt under your shoe

Or a children’s book you forgot you had

Like an ache that you can’t bother to heal

Like I was just someone, anyone, no one at all

Words that sound like poetry

Coat your mouth like caramel

Sweet, indulgent but really

Just a sticky mass of unhealthy sugar

It hurts again. I thought it could never be

As bad as the last time

But it’s worse and more crushing

Because I didn’t think I would let myself hurt this way

No one but myself, no friends who understand

Just a room with little corners

Where I cry until my legs fall numb

Until I turn into an irrational mess of a person

What am I to you? Just a girl you convince yourself is the one

Who your heart doesn’t allow to love enough

Subconsciously, you push me away

It hurts to feel like nothing to you

I wish I was

2010-06-08T02:24:00.003+05:30

I wish I was your Princess

The girl you'd waited for

The one for whom you'd do anything

If she came knocking on your door

I wish nothing else mattered

When you looked in my eyes

And everything else came second

When you had me as the prize

I wish every time I cried

You'd swear to heal my pain

And as long as life was in you

Never let me cry again

But I am not your Princess

I'm not your perfect bride

Even if you swear otherwise

This truth I know, inside

Father

2010-06-01T16:08:00.003+05:30

Big shoulders strong enough

To protect

From everything

Speeding car, leering men, broken heart

Eyes that twinkle more often

Than they cloud

With anger or fear

Light brown pools of hidden emotion

Never perfect, yet seeming just so

Efficient

Machine

Yet more than lazy enough to be human

Downs a pint of whiskey (only the best)

A gentleman

Controlled

Loose, but never a drunken swagger

The smoothest driver, shifting gears

With ease

Experience

That cannot be taught, only admired

The kite flyer, the ocean swimmer

Careful

And carefree

The one who taught me to ride a wave

Brimming with stories and terrible jokes

A father

A friend

Switching between roles seamlessly

Hidden Child

2010-04-29T22:50:00.000+05:30

Suitcase, black stilettos, crisp

Perfect posture stands

Holding an ice cream cone

Residue

2010-03-20T19:49:00.002+05:30

You took my soul, loved it with all of you

But I wasn't good enough to fight for

You took my soul, squeezed the life out of it

Gently, without you or I knowing

You left your fingerprints to haunt me

When I am sleeping, when I am lonely

You left your sweet tasting fingerprints

To remind me it will never be the same

I cannot forgive you for stealing my faith

Sixteen was too young to find a soul mate

I cannot forgive you for stealing the part of me

That could love without fear of being trampled

You swirl, swirl, swirl like the residue in a teacup

That is meant only to be thrown away

I swirl, swirl, swirl in my own confusion

In limbo between the past and present

Look at me now, a shell, an amputee

How will I find someone who will accept this

Look at me now if you can stand to see it

I wait for someone to bring me back to life

If I could go back, I would pry

Out of your hands my most fragile parts

If I could go back, I would take my soul

And save it for someone better than you

Summer Day

2010-03-20T19:14:00.002+05:30

Heat sweating.

You laugh.

We tickle.

You say little jokes

Small little jokes.

We find shade

Only to laugh more.

Only to touch

Gently. Pretend

It didn't happen.

Eyes dance

Mine laugh

With intensity.

Sudden joy

That you are here

Listening

Not listening

Looking the other way.

I pull you towards me

Pushing letting go

Closer

Then further.

It's a game.

The laughter sinks in

Like the sunlight

In the city's heat.

I told you secrets

Little dark spiders

That web in my brain.

You understand.

Strangers no more

I have found you.

Discovery

That makes day

Lighter fuller

With laughter

Silliness

Immaturity

Playfulness.

Taboo

2010-03-08T20:50:00.004+05:30

It began with a playful fight on a lawn

Little shoves and tugs from which were born

Something, a spark, a tiny flicker

A trickling stream that was bound to get thicker

Tickles slowly replaced the pinches

And distances between us reduced to inches

That night, easily, naturally, without a pause

I found my fingers tangled in yours

I know I should have, could have stopped

But sparks ignite with a mere drop

Of fuel; A touch, a glance a smile suffices

The fire, it grows like a beast and rises

One minute, a glass of beer in hand

The next, everything we'd planned

Melted down to nothing and instead

We fell over each other on our rooftop bed

We laughed and rolled and kissed all night

And all that was wrong, seemed so right

I don't know where to go from here

So for just a minute more, stay with me here

Small Poems

2010-01-10T00:24:00.003+05:30

Tiny things, little tiny poems that happen when I can't sleep. <3

When you appeared

Like a baby in a china shop

You toddled over to me

I knew, at that moment

You were going to stay awhile

Suddenly, without warning

Without wanting it to

Love flooded me, beautifully

I breathed again.

Your curls

Brown, orange, maybe even red

Naughty, unruly, soft

They epitomize you

They flirt with my memories of you

Cultural Differences

Language, hometown, habits, tastes

Where did we find the connection?

It’s invisible, but strong enough.

Little Things

A laugh. A girl’s name that annoys me.

Your eyes. Your cheekiness.

Your midnight kisses.

The nine-month-time-of-my-life

Distances

Airplane tickets divide us

Time not enough, feet too slow

If only.

Promises

As if you mean them with all your heart

You make promises, so many

They are broken like fragile pots

I still would bet my life that you’ll keep them

Impressions

Eyes closed, eyes open

Either way, you appear

On my heart, mind and soul

You leave your gentle footprints

Insomnia

Some nights I wait for you, hours and hours

You never come

Some nights I dream with eyes open

Of our happiness

Don’t

Don’t leave me just yet, there’s more

Don’t give up already, we have a chance

Don’t change your mind, it’s not over

I’m terrified you’ll forget about me

Addictive

I want to get out before you hurt me again

But your eyes are honest

Your kisses soothing

I give myself another chance with you

The Day You Left

2009-11-03T19:56:00.004+05:30

A hot, blistering day begins

With a flustered morning

Waiting for you, pining, aching

Your call, a whiff of your voice

And I race to the door

And wait and wait and wait

Until your curly hair enters

My field of vision. Escalator

Ascending. Blue shirt. Shoulders.

You walk the wrong way

And I run, run, run...

Embrace. Relief. Peace.

I cling onto you for life

With time ticking frantically

Every minute bursts

With the pang of your departure

Every time you look at me

Mixed with the happiness you bring

Come waves and waves of sadness

And we walk. Hot, sweaty, hand in hand

The sun can't burn away

The hurt I feel looking at you

My stomach churns with dread

For when you'll say goodbye

My blue-shirt-curly-haired handsome

You stand by the gate with me

Wanting to stay and needing to leave

I curse the forces that pull you from me

I hold back the rain

Choking my eyes, burning

And try to smile. Try to let you go.

I can't. A hug. Another. Another.

Can't erase the heaviness I feel

So, as always, I run from my sadness

I walk away from you, faster

Hoping you don't see me and cry

Sitting in a bus stop

Head in my hands, trying

To numb out the hurt

You see me. You mouth something

I don't understand

I am drawn to you

Like a magnet

I follow the blue shirt in the rickshaw

I follow you like a lost puppy

I run, run, run...

Hoping, irrationally, that you will stop

And come back to me

Instead you accelerate

Around a bend, I lose sight

Of the blue shirt. I'm blind

With hot, lava-like tears

Sweating panting running

Trying to catch a glimpse

A flash, a touch of blue

In the crowded street ahead

Nothing but my ragged breath

Alien unattractive strangers

And thoughts of kisses, laughs, tentative smiles

Of a tiny silver ring on a big finger

Of your quick entry into my world

And your even swifter departure

The tears rain on ceaselessly

I walk and walk and walk and walk

To nowhere; lost without you

No polestars, no blue shirts

For direction

I still cannot fathom the pain

This goodbye brings

Bittersweet

2009-11-03T19:36:00.002+05:30

As strongly as the heart yearns

For home, good company, familiarity

So the heart embraces the new

And welcome winds of change

As I ache for the cool touch

Of my mother's weathered fingers

Her clatter in the kitchen

Her halo of protection and comfort

So I stand wide-eyed, excited

For me new-found freedom

Bearing new responsibilities

With a smile and strong stance

As furiously as I cling to

The part of me i left behind

So I let this new person

Find her soul

Missing Ma

2009-11-01T14:12:00.001+05:30

You burst with beautiful energy

You laugh and you become a child

I ache for that laugh, its warmth

It reminds me how similar we are

Your fingers worn soft

Telling your motherly tales

You read me, meticulously

Every smile, every movement

To you I am transparent

My lies fall to pieces before you

My tears, hidden within bathroom walls

Some you caused, and some others

From when I was a seed inside you

You could feel my heart beat

Even today, you sense every single

One of my sorrows

I get so angry at you sometimes

And you at me, we fight

But when I lie down to sleep

All I can think of is that I let you down

Tonight, in this cold hostel room

I miss you, your touch, your hug

Your words that curl around me

Like a well-worn sweater

I regret sleeping late into the morning

Instead of being around you

I take you for granted

And now I hate myself for it

I would have said all this to you

Cuddled up next to you

Over and over how much I love you

But we never do that. We argue. We hug.

I am falling to pieces without you here

Tonight I just want your presence

I look at your photograph

It isn’t enough. I miss you.

He's just not you

2009-05-04T17:56:00.003+05:30

He's so gorgeous
His lines outrageous
He makes the first move
But he's just not you

He's naughty, like a child
He's crazy and wild
It's great, he's funny too
But he's just not you

He flirts with me all the time
But he doesn't make me rhyme
He's fresh, he's new
But he's just not you

HE can't write beautiful songs
He can't make me belong
In your arms like you do
No one could ever be you.

2009-04-22T15:27:00.004+05:30

I can smile though you hurt me
I won't cry if you desert me
I can be just your friend
There's nothing in me to mend

I don't miss you like before
I don't need you anymore
You aren't my life blood
And it feels so good

It's OK when we fight
I don't stay up at night
Wondering if it was my fault
Or if i should have called

You're not the sun
I revolve around
You're not the one
To whom I'm bound
You were everything once
But an end always comes

I don't miss you like before
I don't need you anymore
You aren't my life blood
And it feels so good

oh honey, no offense, it feels good.

Wishes

2009-04-09T11:18:00.002+05:30

Let us marry on a beach

With white rosed garlands
Let our parents bless us
With all their hearts
Let our footprints on the sand
Never erase from memory
No matter that they were
Erased by the sea

Let us spend those first years
Like new lovers
Discovering each others'
Bodies, minds, souls
Let the passion never die
Despite the years that pass
Let our hands always hold
To comfort each other

Let our every thought, word and action
Be infused with gentleness
Let we never lie or betray
And if we ever do
Let us forgive in time
If ever there is a doubt of fading love
Let it dissolve at once
When we are in each others' arms

Let the harsh words that we speak
Be drowned by the laughter
Of our children
Let them reflect our childhood
And remind us to be carefree

Let us never be too busy
To say, "I love you"
Let our arguments be peaceful
I hope work never forces us
To neglect our family
Or to neglect our love

I wrote this one night when I couldn't get sleep. These wishes are things that i know will never really come true, little girls like to wish upon stars. I just wanted to write down my insane hopes. I don't know if it classifies as poetry, but it is the song of my heart and I hope that counts.

Loveless

2009-03-12T15:04:00.002+05:30

Love in the movies

In the park holding hands
Hides in an invisible nook
Jumps out and ruins and plans.

Loveless:

A computer keyboard chatters
Father is hard at work
Other trivial, inconsequential matters
In his shadows lurk

Mother sings along to the radio
Cooks, cleans, makes house home
Silent tears ebb and flow
Like a sad, soft poem

They met under parents' watchful eyes
Barely knowing each other
Two loveless decades pass by
They have not yet grown on each other

Their two children bind them
And they suffocate
Some unknown duty confines them
To a life they hate

They sleep in two rooms
Share not a word of love
Anger and regret they speak of
Why not just end it in a courtroom?

An impossible possibility
An act unheard of
Divorce? Absurdity!
Marriage was never about love

Lullaby

2009-02-01T13:45:00.002+05:30

Are you sleepless tonight?
See the firleflies light
In the city smoke bright
The only stars of the night

Can you hear my voice
Over the hostel boys,
Over your brain's noise?
Can you feel my sorrows and joys?

Let's take a quiet walk
Our faraway hearts talk
Our lips lock
Till sleep on your door knocks

As settles the morning dew
Tonight, I am awake too
Me heart clings onto
All the wonder I found in you

Opposite

2009-02-01T13:35:00.002+05:30

I inhale
You exhale
I cry
I sigh
You smile
All the while
I understand
You just can't
I'm lost
At sea, tossed
And turning
Stomach churning
You're ashore
Locked your door
In the clouds
Laughing out loud
You don't know
I'm waiting below

You walk
You talk
Move along
Sing your songs
I wait
You're late
Your words
Absurd
So kind
I'm blind
To your love
Tired of
Fighting
Lighting
Our flame
Like a game
Of hide and seek

I'm weak
You're strong
I'm wrong
To accuse you
I can't lose you
You stay
Today
Tomorrow
I know
Bigger things
Life will bring
You'd leave
Bereaved
I'd lie
I'd cry

Family

2008-11-04T20:42:00.003+05:30

This is a very personal poem, something I wrote when I was bursting with tears. I fear that the emotion I felt at the time cannot be aptly portrayed through my words, but I hope I can share a tiny sliver.

You say we are not family

But do you mean it?

Can you spend a day not worrying

If your children are safe?

The home we made

Seems like a prison to you

But it is my solace

The place where I find family

But you say we are not your family

Who am I to you, Mamma?

Am I simply some child?

Am I a burden in your arms?

Are you forced to love me

Because we are bound by blood?

I love you despite your words

I beg you, I kneel, I cry

For you to feel in your heart

My ever flowing love

But I am not your family

Then how can you feel the peace

That i feel when I come home

To have three people I can readily

Give my life for

That I can always lean on

That are a part of my being

Yet, you know not this family

And without you

We are simply people

Waiting for the missing beat

That you took away

Each in our own way

Love you unconditionally

Can you not love us?

There's Something About You

2008-09-07T22:50:00.002+05:30

This isn't serious poetry; i was just having some fun :)

Something about you makes me smile
Just thinking of our times together
And when I start, I can't seem to stop
Proof of how much we love each other

Something about you melts my heart
I feel a longing to cuddle in your hug
I want to hold your face in my hands
Sit on a couch with you and a coffee mug

Something about you tickles my ribs
I roll around in a giggly fit
You cheered me up with all that humour
My dark days with laughter you lit

Something about you tears me up
Because our time is running out
Is it my fear that forever can never happen?
Yet in the depth of our love, I know no doubt

Something about you turns me on
Well, everything about you does
From your voice to your wrists to your yummy kiss
Just a bed, some chocolate and us!

Sweet Surrender...again

2008-08-15T13:00:00.002+05:30

I began a chapter of my life with Sweet Surrender, and now I close it.

What's this thing I've never felt
I find so hard to define?
With these feelings I've never dealt
Come near me, I'll be fine

For so long life revolved
Now you, the center shifts
And all at once, life dissolves
The wings of love now lift

I walk myself down that wondrous road
Every footstep a precious memory
Every bloom a kiss, on the path we strode
Now simply a silent reverie

Those gentle words you whispered
Still float in the tunnels of my mind
And I, breathless enraptured
Know that you, darling, are one of a kind

Like midnight without a star
Like a rose without its hue
Like day break without a sunrise afar
Life loses its magic without you

Time passes like the blink of an eye
Where the years went, I sigh in wonder
But love, you taught me how to fly
I'm glad to you, I surrendered

Time of My LIfe

2008-08-14T14:37:00.000+05:30

I keep writing about all we did
Held hands, spoke with our eyes
And I forget to write down
How you make me feel
Or rather, avoid the act
For my mind would search so deep
To find apt words
These mortal feelings cannot be described
By a million immortal words
So ephemeral
Drifting between the shadows
Of reality and magic
Feelings of unencompassible love
Of sudden bursts of fury
That die with a thought of you
Of stretched hours of loneliness
Surrounded by people
Yet in my own dark corner
Of searing fits of pain
The separation, the distance, the silence
Rings like an ominous bell

Letting Go

2008-05-27T21:45:00.002+05:30

Face to face, eye to eye
You're all I ever wanted
I turn away with a sigh
I'm forced to let you go

Hand in hand, it's still a lie
I want an impossible future
I smile, inside I cry
For everything I'm losing

Illusions everywhere around
Who knows right from wrong?
We speak without a sound
Everything and nothing makes sense

We are simply two freinds
We try to convince ourselves
But in this profound silence
Our Love betrays us

Shower Tears

2008-05-27T21:41:00.001+05:30

When you leave, I climb into the shower
Sorrow, pain like skyscrapers tower
I sing to clear my rain clouded mind
In this cubicle I stand confined
And the tears rain invisible
My knees bend, unstable
I fall, all my pride disappears
And in its place fills cold fear
The water rinses my face
My tears don't leave a trace
But it cannot rinse my soul
Of all the hurt it holds

Cancer

2008-01-31T16:41:00.001+05:30

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A wife, one day she awoke
To see her husband sleeping
She kissed him good morning
Seeing not the terror creeping

The mother sat with her family
Her children babbling away
She smiled unnasuming
That hell would break loose today

She felt some fatigue, but let it pass
"It's nothing to worry about"
Till all day did her body ache
And she felt a twinge of doubt

She waited in the asylum-white room
The odour of medicine in the air
With a number for a name, she walked
Head on into the nightmare

In a daze like a wooden puppet
She let them probe and prick
The man in white, he shook his head
"Ma'am I think you're very sick"

She did not understand him
"How sick am I?" asked she
He scribbled in a pad and said
"I'll send you to Oncology"

Easy Trust

2008-01-25T21:34:00.002+05:30

Why stranger do you listen
To my angst and sorrow
How does your act
Sponge away my pain

You find my fingers
Your heart beats
With my ever aching heart
You taste my tears

Stranger, I do not know
Where you head
Yet, I lay bare all
The shadows of my past

You speak not in reply
But the fever ebbs away
Like a line of mercury
In a thermometer

These moments you hear
My quivering voice, I try
To hide myself and my tears
But you set them free

Stay stranger, I shall unveil
Your mysteries
Let us ease our loneliness
Let me discover your shadows

Love

2008-01-22T21:37:00.001+05:30

The moonlight's glitter on the ocean
Couldn't be as beautiful as love

A flower in springtime bloom
Couldn't be as joyful as love

A snowflake on a tree branch
Couldn't be as delicate as love

The fiery hot glare of the sun
Couldn't be as passionate as love

A star studded midnight
Couldn't be as magical as love

A footprint upon a golden coast
Couldn't be as ephemeral as love

The blood flowing through every vein
Couldn't be as life-giving as love

The forest sawed down that regenerates
Couldn't be as forgiving as love

A shower of rain in the desert
Couldn't be as soothing as love

A fantastic insect with glittering wings
Couldn't be as alluring as love

The wind that carries a kite
Couldn't be as uplifting as love

And yet, a plague across the nations
Couldn't be as devastating as love

I Will Miss...

2007-12-14T13:13:00.000+05:30

Your gorgeous eyes so brown
Your comfort when I'm feeling down
Your touch that turns me on
That caresses long after you're gone
Your kiss that tastes so sweet
The drum of your heart beat
Your body's perfect contours
Your shoulders and their curvature
Your laugh that bursts from inside
The thought of being your future bride
The stolen kisses in the guitar room
The more-than-just-kisses in your bedroom
Your jokes that tickle my bones
Your voice whispering in gentle tones
Your hands as soft as butter
The words of love you utter
Your cute, mixed up accent
The fifteen minute breaks we spent
How you always lend a listening ear
As my words pour out, so do my fears
The random songs you sing
The infinite joy you bring
How you love the things I write
How your hug makes things alright
The ink marks on your fingers
The scent of you that lingers
Your body so perfectly made
Your faith in God that never fades
Your compliments I always refuse
The things you own in orange hues

The list goes on and shall never end
For try as I might I can't pretend
My insides clench, my knees grow weak
My throat is dry, I cannot speak
I want to cry, "baby please stay"
But I know you have to go away
So every night in my mind's abyss
I find something new that I will miss

Today

2007-12-09T16:28:00.000+05:30

Today I thought you wouldn't show
But you came an hour late
I thought I would only get to say hello
But we began to communicate
I thought I could keep my hands controlled
But they reached for yours eagerly
I thought i couldn't get close today
But you came closer to me
I thought you wouldn't see me dance
But you caught me moving my hips
I thought I could stop wanting you
But inches apart were our lips
Today my hands and feet were hurting
But your touch went over the bruise
I felt so tried I could have dropped
But your voice through the room diffused
Today, I thought would be so terrible
But your fingers ran down my arm
I thought today would be like any other
But your presence itself is a charm

Awake I Lie In Solitude

2007-11-02T21:00:00.000+05:30

Some days I hate myself
Catalogued feelings on the shelf
Come toppling down in torrents
When awake I lie in solitude

Thinking of the minutes wasted
Beauty so oft never tasted
I shudder in resentment
When awake I lie in solitude

An overhead plain of white ceiling plaster
Into which sinks the day's disaster
A multitude of careless mistakes
When awake i lie in solitude

Gradually dim the negativities
Like the city lights, I find clarity
Sleep she crawls like a snake
And my lids close in solitude

Time

2007-10-14T19:06:00.000+05:30

Time, the sly one
The black panther crouching
Inconspicuous in life's foliage
Seeming to be in tireless run

We, the antelope, earth brown
Unsuspecting of his presence
Of his incomprehensible power
His senses tack us down

Slinking between the shadows
Of doubt, carnivorously
Waiting to corner the pestilent
That they are, the weak never know

It occurs to us time would speed
But like a whisper he slithers
His yellow cat eyes aflash
The signs we fail to read

Then he leaps, a racing blur
Streak of black the panther becomes
Hooves clop frantically for escape
Run, but he shall not deter

Time, you must never underestimate
And our limbs flimsy as reeds
Succumb to his ever hunting claws
A reminder 'fore he seals our fate

Classroom

2007-10-13T13:48:00.000+05:30

And rings the bell again
Like trained animals
We crowd into the class
Reluctantly the seconds pass
After the teacher-student chasmal
Out come notebooks and pens

Echoing voices lull me to sleep
With open eyes and I wonder
The stories the blackboard could hold
Too insignificant to be told
Swipe the white asunder
Erased lessons in a chalky heap

A Poem That Isnt Poetic

2007-09-25T21:05:00.001+05:30

I was trying to write you a poem
But how can i confine to meter, rhyme
These feelings that flow so furiously
They coagulate, I choke
And not one thing comes out

Because every time you are near
I still get the shivers
I still want to get closer
And the times we're apart
I ache to see you again
I dream of your liquid eyes

If i could write you a song, I would
But I'm no musician
I can't find the words
If i could stay in your arms longer, I would
But time slips away
Things get in the way

And like clay without moisture
Or brooks without laughter
Like morning grass without dew
I would be incomplete without you

You make me laugh
In that wonderful way you do
It feels so light, so good
To know i can always laugh with you

And your every touch, every whisper, every kiss
Every move has me transfixed
Has me begging for more
Like the way you say so softly, "i love you"
Like the words would shatter if they
Weren't uttered so
As if you mean it in the most gentle way
I know you mean it

Even if tomorrow we part
To have loved you
So understanding, funny, weird,
So forgetful, sensitive, open, kind,
So full of unconditional love
And to know you have loved me
That i am worthy of this
It is enough happiness
To last me a lifetime

The way you have moved me
How you showed what it felt like
To be truly loved
How you held me so close to you
I could feel your heart beat
I knew at that moment
How perfectly we fit together

I could never hope to find
A person like you
And we are so lucky
To have found each other

I love you...

If No One Were Looking

2007-08-21T14:29:00.000+05:30

If no one were looking

We can stop pretending

Our actions real and true

Feelings in plain hue

No more meek hiding

If no one were looking

If no one were listening

Secrets no longer silent

Out loud would speak minds

No thought straying behind

Every signal openly sent

If no one were listening

If no one were judging

Our choices solely our own

No expectations to meet

No victory or low defeat
Or disapproving undertones
If no one were judging

Eyes of Silence

2007-07-22T20:10:00.000+05:30

Sounds buzz like flitting bees
The loundness
Into the atmosphere sinks

Indifferently people talk, walk by
Uncaringly
Insensitivity surrounding them

Your eyes in all their gentleness
Sparkling peace
Calm my chaotic insides

They of quiet assurance
Unravel
Confusion's tangled nets

When mine burn furious red
Your eyes
Love-filled cool the heat

Smoothing my sharpest corners
Thank you
You make all the difference

La Langue De L'Amour

2007-06-23T20:08:00.000+05:30

Dans la langue de l’amour
Je t’écris une poème
Parceque je t’adore
Et tu m’aime le même

Les chansons qui tu chante
Les mots qui tu parle, doux
Tu m’enchante
Chaque jour, plus en plus

Je ne suis pas une femme de lettres
Mais mon amour, ecoute-moi
La place je veux être
Est seul avec toi

TRANSLATION

In the language of love
I write you a poem
Because i adore you
And you love me the same

The songs that you sing
The words that you speak, sweet
You enchant me
Every day, more and more

I am not a woman of letters
But my love, listen to me
The place i want to be
Is only with you

Square One

2007-06-19T18:51:00.000+05:30

Back to square one
Through stormy seas
To well deserved peace
Another first kiss

Back to square one
Comfortable space
Your fingers trace
Me in familiar bliss

Back to square one
Knowing secrets
Promising to keep it
So easy now to trust

Back to square one
Forgetting past fears
Embracing now and here
Inhibitions turn to dust

Holding hands and pacing
Finishing where we had begun
Don’t know what we’re chasing
You and I, back to square one

Strangers

2007-04-24T18:34:00.000+05:30

Why do you hope for love
Like a wing clipped dove
Under a sheet of frost
Hopes for some warmth lost ?
Love to me is a stranger
The liar, the ever-changer

In an opaque bubble
Blind to the inevitable
Existing in dark hollow
Reality too hard to swallow
Truth to me is a stranger
My fantasies it wants to injure

Alone is a beautiful place
To be me without a shadowed face
Solitude, so safe and secure
No company to smilingly endure
People to me are strangers
I have but myself to endanger

And now by a reality struck
I am the rotten apple to be plucked
That it is sparkling crystal clear
'Tis I, the real imposter here
This poet herself is the stranger
And there is nothing to do to change her.

Something Lost In the Rain

2007-04-18T18:11:00.001+05:30

I remember your music
The day you stilled me
The day you filled me
With love pure and thick
To find you was to be alive

Our drunken promises
The ones we keep
The ones that sleep
In our reminisces
"Don't think, just dive"

And smooth sailing 'twas
Sun bright
Or moonlight
Submitting not to human laws
A lie we lived all these days

We betrayed so many, their trust
We were fools
Breaking rules
How gullible love makes us
Was it us, or Fate's cruel ways

All our crazy fantasies
Like free flying
Like never dying
Or lovers in white peace
The dreams fall to the floor

So we ran and ran so far
Away from here
Anywhere but here
Fuelled by our beating hearts
Only to meet a vaulted door

Stop! Screech to a halt
Is this the end?
Can we still pretend
Our misfortunes are not our fault?
If only, if only, if only..

Iron strength melts to butter
Don't say goodbye
Don't say don't cry
These wounds will never get better
Suddenly we are so lonely

Lying here, the words resonate
You're alone
You're alone
Stifled by the world I hate
And like blood the hope drains

A new day must dawn now
Get set
To forget
A fresh breath to allow
And cleanse ourselves in the rain

CHOCOLATE SAUCE AND ICE CREAM

2007-04-13T11:24:00.000+05:30

I wrote this one for one of my best freinds, on his birthday. We had been fighting alot and i wanted to be nice! I called it chocolate sauce and ice cream becuase we're always using analogies and this one i liked alot.

No, I will not start a fight
I will not say I was right
And before it’s too late
I want to ask you out on a date

Let’s sit down, me and you
Let’s yell and laugh and be blue
For no matter how odd we seem
We’re like chocolate sauce and ice cream

Through irking irritations
Or curses and damnations
Through trials and tribulations
Or hyperactive elations

Through fluctuating joy and rage
As if all the world’s our stage
Through crazy psychotic dreams
We’re like chocolate sauce and ice cream

Where would I find another Jes,
Who flips my life into a mess?
Only to smile like a little kid
And I forget everything he did

The one who understands my secret codes
Who cracks me up when I’m bored
Who gets me angry and steamed
We’re still chocolate sauce and ice cream

So before I forget, hear what I say
Like it or not, I’m here to stay
And darling I must confess
I’m not in love, but it’s love nonetheless

And know that I’ll always be a pain
A creature driving you insane
But we’re such a wonderful, evil team
Just like chocolate sauce and ice cream!

Turmoil

2007-04-02T08:44:00.000+05:30

The deadly war wages
Tradition versus Youth
Obedience versus Rebellion
Rationality versus Instinct

The dividing line is hazed
Between right and wrong
Under trampling ideologies
Under sweeping clubs of change

Youth stirs new questions,
Tradition gives time-tested answers

Rebellion like a sudden earthquake
Obedience: silent and understanding

Instinct, the reaction of the heart
Rationality needs the decisions of the mind

The well-matched enemies
Angling sharp swords
Flinging sharper words
The battlefield echoes their roars

Each in haughty stance
Each with purpose and conviction
Clashing shields with parallel force
Upon the bloody grass

Since time breathed anew
Waging deep in our thoughts
Perpetually the war goes on
Boiling ceaselessly

The contenders wait not
Their weapons like tolling bells ring
Until sinks the sun in coolness
And sleep reigns over turmoil

The Jungle

2007-03-18T11:23:00.000+05:30

A tropical dance
Like outstretched hands
Rhythmic swaying
The petals playing
With sight and sound
And smell abound
Orchids, jasmine,
Roses of heaven,
Dahlias and marigolds.

Nature lovers behold
A treasure chest
Of her very best
In all splendor the queen
Hot, wet and unseen
Stole away in blackness
With a sole witness
The night, starry eyed
As she ran to hide

Where exotic birds
Freshly heard
Wing in quiet
Like the onset of the night
And gentle stars
Light years afar
Captured by
Those enraptured by
Their shine and blink
In paint or ink

A poet’s bliss,
Like me, in this
Sweet paradise
Until demise
To savour the sights
And proudly recite
Inspired creations

Imagination
Fired by a copper sun
Only just begun
Exploring awide
Possibilities inside
And out, all around
Absorbing all sounds
From crass cacophony
To smooth symphony
Rising and falling
Ever enthralling
From the chitter chatter
Of the brook’s laughter
As she bubbles along
To the eerie song
Of wildest breeze
And darkest trees
In flirtatious duet
Beneath bright sunset

Oh what boundless

Grace here rests
Silently keeping
To herself, sleeping
Like a tired serpent
Under the vast tent
Of dripping foliage
In camouflage

Enter not this fantasy!
Come near, and she
Will flee under our
Touch of greed and power
Her virgin foils
Will fast despoil
Only those so tender
Could befriend her

Oh gentle being
I, upon seeing
You in such glory
Will recall your story
To those who lend
And ear and send
To the world your plea
To let you be
And you shall flourish
As is my wish
And all can see
Your grand beauty

S.O.L.I.T.U.D.E

2007-03-18T11:14:00.000+05:30

Safe from opinions

On your own, alone is bliss

Little can they do to you

Inside yourself you abode

Timeless, spaceless imagination

Untainted hopes and aspirations

Deepest anger and hate

Everything is treasured in solitude

Request to a Friend

2007-03-06T21:30:00.000+05:30

There’s so little I have to say to you
You’re just another photograph
Just another erased tattoo
On my bleeding skin
Today when you stare straight at me
And mockingly you laugh
You are no more just anybody
Questioning my decisions

I want to scream, make you realize
I’m not a thoughtless fool
For once, look into my eyes
Don’t turn my dreams away
A quiet mind with few words
I want to convince you
There are voices in me, unheard
I am brimming with things to say

We are much alike, you and I
Tiny mysteries that we hide
If only we saw eye to eye
There would be nothing to mend
Don’t look through me like I am worthless
Respect me for what is inside
As I see in you good company, no less
So find in me a new friend

The Dying Past

2007-02-25T17:52:00.000+05:30

Let go now, in grief
Or joy, with a hearty toast
Proposed to the past
As a lost autumn leaf
Floats like a scarlet ghost,
A forgotten outcast

She flies so aimlessly
Swirling in, about, round and out
Inhaling every last
Scent restlessly
Before fades, their fragrant shouts
And dies, the past

She once was young
Evoking jealousy like the belle of counties
With radiant green
Now sapless flies among
Forgotten homeless memories
Weathered of her sheen

Gently does she descend
To melt into earth as brown as her
Shelving every last
Precious fragment
In the mind’s depths; only a blur
Good bye, oh past!

Saviour

2006-12-26T16:32:00.000+05:30

It begins: her last day on earth

The morn she takes to heaven

A life withered to no worth

She contemplates yet again

Is this the end to her sorrow,

Can she leave the reeling world behind,

Is she sure of no brighter tomorrow,

Or has the hurt marred her blind?

This path she paved in recklessness

Striding on until the dead end

And anger for years repressed

In death to it will she tend

Her footprints mark the carpet

She knows she will die alone

The tear drops fall cold and wet

As fear chills her to the bone

Her thoughts swirl like fog and mist
She wonders if anyone would care
Will her quiet existence be missed,
Will just one lend her a prayer?

She faintly remembers what

Brought laughter from within

Her heart has long forgot

The whirlwind that joy brings

Her eyes search skies numerous times

For the presence of an Almighty Saviour

That heavenly ladder shall she climb

To question why He didn't save her

And him, the one she lived for

She wanted so much to stay

The boy whose touch she craved for

Seemed too strong to give away

But they have torn and tattered

He no longer shares her pain

Soft eyes reveal she is battered

She will be gone and he will be the same

Nor mother, nor father to fret
Nor the warmth of her kin
Consumed in loneliness like a blanket
Prepared to commit her final sin

Brick by brick, each one had crashed

Her silver spider web dreams

That cruel rain and wind had lashed

To leave a haunting requiem

She looks around the mess she made

Invisible sewage of a worn-out life

Reason and rationality have long strayed

One question: the noose or the knife?

Enchambered in her desolate thoughts
Her cowardice and fear drain
So years of living vainly fought
Now end in a whip of joyous pain

The blinds are closed as are her eyes

The blade of death at her throat

"Goodbye" her mind in relief sighs

In peace her soul will float

And a knock, just one, before it burst

There he stands before her in tears

The only one who quenched her thirst

The man who blew away her fears

Dear love, your time has passed

Too late for your apologies

She swipes across the vein at last

For her fragile life must softly flee

He is not weak, he holds her at once

She struggles to free his clasp

Gentle as a feather she becomes

As she crumbles in his warm grasp

Her blood like a scarlet river

She spills upon his saving arms

The past escapes in a shiver

His presence like a soothing balm

He swears to God he shall protect

This beautiful girl from pain

He prays to God this life so wrecked

He can build back up again

You can see her by the setting sun

The scars still etch her skin

And many more invisible ones

That pierced her from within

You can see her smile in wisdom

And grace the years have brought

Her smile, the fruit of her freedom

From a tiresome battle fought

Don't Stop Running

2006-12-26T15:15:00.000+05:30

It has been a lifetime since
We spoke of our feelings deep

A dreary fight that silence wins

Dark distances deftly creep

Do you remember when I burst

With my endless narrations

You heard it all, through the best and worst

You laughed and listened with patience

Remember our first beautiful kiss

Lips dancing to love's tunes

Our skin so close, in bliss

Good things always end too soon

How fast it slipped away

Accommodating painful tears

Let's not trust the evil they

Speak to brew in us these frantic fears

The most precious of things

Are oft destroyed in jealous hands

Before it ends, let's start running

From they who ne'er understand

The Fool's Downfall

2006-12-08T20:48:00.001+05:30

Glow the smiles like sunshine
Till horizon, so divine
Brightness
Wind singing through your hair
Spices floating in the air
Sweetness

You search not, 'tis waiting
Beneath, clawed and hiding
The pain
Stalking each reckless move
Look clearer to see through
The veil

Naively believing
Blind to truth approaching
You fool!
Life paints a picture bleak
It's law crushes the weak
Like you

Open hazy eyes at last
As dreams sleep in the past
And die
Ilusions have faded

Lying alone defeated

You cry

Is there no-one who cares

This soul drenched in despair

Retreats

How fast the bubble burst

The past lays a heavy curse

Of defeat

Betrayal

2006-12-05T18:56:00.000+05:30

To want to give life,
But to kill
These hands tremble
Broken under
Destiny's heavy curse
Upon guilty
And innocent
Like the final slash
Of a fiery sword
It sweeps
You kneel
Defeated, dying
Shattered bones
Shattered heart
Strong eyes cry
The hand of betrayal
Tainted with your blood
Drawn like a flag
Raised in victory
Until you bow

Only sorry is seived
Through fate's
Inescapable fingers
Death the only refuge
Death the only answer
Sorry is never
Enough. Stop!!
Apologies are beyond
Betrayal
For events turned
To scar beyond recognition
This bond

So be it
Unchangeable past
Unbearable present
Unthinkable future
And so it shall be

The Rose

2006-10-14T12:00:00.000+05:30

Sensual incantation of scent
Blood-red heavenly angel sent
Pricking the fox who dares
Approach thy thorny lair

Passionate tango of romance
Thy fragrance with senses dance
Inebriated as they float along
Sways each to thy crimson song

Petals of softness adorning thee
Robes of scarlet jealousy
Regally they shroud thy soul
Sweet perfume so gently unfolds

As thee, my life takes shape
These dusty words, my escape
Thorny eyes protect inside
Soft, red scent, in me I hide

As wild like scarlet fire
Thy radiance do I desire
Unbending under command
Of wind or rain or sun to stand

You

2006-10-04T21:38:00.000+05:30

Your eyes
Pools of hazel reflecting depths
Within my drowning secrets kept
Essence of truth beneath swims
Caressing my every whim

Your arms

Bearing the weight of my sorrow

Protecting love for tomorrow

Blanketing true comfort, warm

Holding out against the storm

Your lips

Trickling songs and kisses pure

Passionate, yet gently demure

Honey-sweet, they await me

Tender dreams frame reality

Your voice

Heady with music it fills

Moving my body but silently still

Erupting words from heaven alight

Weaving poetry into the night

Your smile
Melting fragile emotions
Veiling worldy commotion
Causing my heart to skip beats
Each magical time we meet

Your touch
Soft and gentle tease
Airy waves of autumn breeze
Skimming roses across my skin
Senses alive like never been

You

Reason enough to awake today

Through valleys dark, a golden ray

Answers to questions abound

In you, each one is found

Secret

2006-09-16T21:51:00.000+05:30

Closer, still closer to your skin,
Only inches separating
A crystal moment we're in
Alas, we can do nothing

Holding back; its not the time
Leaving but a trace of a clue
As my pulse higher it climbs
It's hard keeping my hands off you

A moment shared in connection
A prelude of things to come
My mind and body in tension
To all else my senses numb

Daring to speak with my fingers
Cryptic meaning, but to you is known
Like the scent of perfume, it lingers
Now aching more to be alone

Electric tingling within me
Your softness felt, just a while
No one senses the energy
The sole hint is your smile

Closer, still closer to your skin,

Only inches separating

A crystal moment we are in

Alas, we can do nothing

Letter

2006-09-15T15:34:00.000+05:30

This was just some offhand poetry I wrote to him in one of our letters, but since this site is for all my poetry, I thought I'd post it. It's a little long, but I hope you like it. Tell me what u think.

hi, love
I'm pretty much at a loss for words.
my deepest feelings u have stirred
and things I thought could not be true
come real because I'm loved by you.
and if anyone should pay back,
it's me. There's nothing you lack.

This isn't exactly quality verse
And words couldn't show how immersed
I am in everything that's you;
These words will always be too few.
But anyway, I'm in a poetic mood
I think tonight I'll sleep nude
(That's just some extra info
To remind you of what you're in for)
Anyway back to my point
(Do I end joint? Anoint? Loins?)

Where was I? Oh yeah, I'm speechless
Don't believe me? Ok, I confess
I'm only blank when it comes to you
You know how weird I am around you
With those wrists, who wouldn't?
I tried not to look, but couldn't.
So? Who cares if I'm crazy
The rest of the world is a hazy
Distorted place to me.
You're the one who loves me, for me

The way you make me laugh out loud
You've got me floating on a cloud
And how loving and sweet you get
Everything else, I tend to forget.
let the world lie in the gutter,
for all I care. They're all nutters
What matters is we're together
You know that's not about to change ever.

To me, there is only us
The others can get hit by a bus
(Sorry, couldn't get another rhyme
not a bad idea, in fact, I'm
rather excited by the thought
of a bus knocking off the entire lot)
As the hospitals get healing,
Let's talk of these fabulous feelings
Like how good that day, you smelled,
Like how holding your hand felt,
Like how I'm waiting for the day
You sing to me "happy birthday",
Like how your every letter
Has me feeling tons better,
And how I can't get enough
Of drowning in your love.

Each day you make more beautiful
Just thinking of you is wonderful
And I love dreaming all night
About us. Though some dreams might
Be a little weird but hey,
A girl doesn't meet a guy like you everyday
So I guess the dreams just add on
(Like that one, we're kissing on the lawn)
To the awesome, deep feelings you bring
I'm flying so high(that too without wings!)

Hey, I think I've got to go
But without you, life's such a bore
Anyway I guess I've blabbed for a while
I hope by now, I've made you smile
(If not, just do it now
Yup, u got it, that's how)
So bye, for now,I'll see you
You know forever I'll love you
And like we always say
Still waiting for that someday....

If

2006-08-16T12:01:00.000+05:30

If I laughed when I had the chance

If I did when you asked me to dance

If no-one were watching us

If time was not stalking us

If all that was wrong turned right

If we we could be alone tonight

If hearts were never broken

If there were no words left unspoken

If not a glistening tear shed

If tomorrow I don't wake from bed

If your eyes didn't betray the truth

If we could drink from a fountain of youth

If money moved not a man

If only they would understand

If a kiss could bring me to life

If blood never dripped from a knife

If the world stopped going round
If we could run away and never be found

If my every wish were granted true

I'd only wish to stay with you.

Sharing Blood

2006-08-08T21:26:00.000+05:30

To my favourite tune I sing along

Is he psychic?

He walks in humming the exact song

That's how I know

Me and my bro

Share blood

I fight with the little tyke

For the T.V. remote

Whoa! It's the same channel we like

Did you know

Me and my bro

Share blood.

All set for the jamming party

But to get embarrassed

I notice our identical jeans and tees

It goes to show

Me and my bro

Share blood

Dreaded day at the clinic

What are the results?

O+ve after the needle prick

Now everyone knows

Me and my bro

Share blood

Give Us A Minute

2006-08-06T19:37:00.000+05:30

Each day, the clocks run on
Our filtered conversations others watch upon
Needing escape from this world, moribund
To where our hearts beat as one sound

A minute to drown in your eyes, deep
From curiosity that stealthily creeps
A minute to lie in your open arms,
Safe from a world of scathing harm

To speak uncensored, animated
To curse all the people I've hated
To whisper locked secrets to you and
To melt into the warmth of your hands

Alive will they be, my love
Every moment at night we have dreamed of
Secluded in our far away place
Unhindered by neither time nor space

Soon, we will share time together
The seconds will tick like a falling feather
But each other, nothing will we see
Just a minute, alone, you and me.

Indescribable

2006-07-29T12:26:00.000+05:30

I beathe every breath for you
Eternally

I see nothing but you
Purely

I would wait forever for you
Infinitely

I can move mountains for you
Comfortably

I live to be with you
Wholly

I would try anything for you
Unconditionally

I can change my world for you
Easily

I would do anything to kiss you
Softly

I would run miles to see you
Earnestly

I love you
Indescribably

Tearless

2006-07-28T21:07:00.000+05:30

Grey skies rumble in: a storm
Brewing another distorted day
Tornadoes swirl, as does my brain
Lost in time, misplaced.

Sad music serenades on
Stung by its resounding melody
I lie awake, alone, awash by thoughts
Cold feelings and stinging melodies.

Pause, breathe, wait, think, they say
But a single shade is this morn
In the spectrum of life
As though they have never hurt.

Numbed by lonliness
Blinded by fear
Scathing anger simmering

And smiling tearless eyes

Not a drop do I cry
Bottled fury, sealed pain
Never-betraying, smiling tearless eyes
Veiling my insides of sorrow.

Abstract Mind

2006-07-11T17:58:00.000+05:30

A heart, Artistic
A life, Mystic
These hands, creating
These eyes, ever searching

What things unseen, catch my eye
As a world of normality passes by:
Delicate white lace in the breaking tide
A lost feeling in memory revived,
The curve of a hip in sand dunes,
Silver fairy dust in craters of the moon,
The sweat of labour in melting ice,
Twinkling diamonds in the eyes of surprise,
The stench of murder in a matador's red

Twisted lies in golden truth said

The depth of the past in a bottle of ink,
Desperate clasping hands in chain links.

This mind, heady with Fantasy
This mind, severed from Reality
This mind, straying from Fact
This mind, Unreal, Abstract.

Let it Slide

2006-06-21T20:14:00.000+05:30

When your world is a mess, insane
Don't scream out loud, refrain
Keep your chin high,
Wipe those red eyes dry
Away with these washable stains.

When hope crumbles in your hands
Weary and weak, you lose your stand
Another ditch in the road,
A minute of biting cold
But a thread in the intricate plan.

When its a blizzard of bad days
There's a light through the haze
It's a momentary gale
Soon, your ship will set sail
To the door at the end of the maze.

Just let things slide,
Take trouble in your stride
Why frown, why worry
You will get through the calamity
What counts is the ride

Just let things slide
Don't you feel deprived
These tremors are a phase
That time will soon erase
Just a shake to your pride
Let it slide.

Bathroom Star

2006-06-15T16:50:00.001+05:30

Towel cosy against my skin
Needing to unwind from within
To soak away all my woes
As rivulets over my body flows.

Cooling, calming, clarifying,
Falling, flowing, filling;
Healing with incessant slivers
My daily ritual in the shower:

A song sprouts from my lips
Feet moving to the rhythmic drips
The wet, white marble becomes
My audience as to my tune, I hum

The concert is on, I'm in the groove
People singing as I bust my moves
Without a care, I'm on a high
Shampoo suds like confetti fly

When my hips move in jiving motions

The fanatic crowd of my imagination

Cheers on as I lose my mind

Within the bathroom, behind closed blinds.

Jamming on a fake electric guitar

A pretentious girl for a rock star

Tonight there's no stopping this diva

As mercilessly, she sings in the shower!

Unknowing of my nakedness
Down the drain goes mounted stress
And just as my fans roar, "Encore!"
I slip on the soap, and fall to the floor!

The Old Flame

2006-06-10T09:40:00.000+05:30

Years ago, when our minds were young
A spark of "like" had begun
An ounce or two more than friends
But the feelings were quiet then.

Now, as we see, the tiny flame dying
And decide to stop trying
To keep the old secret in
We let it all out from within

But too late, alas!
Our chance, gone, our time has passed
And it seems like I'm still waiting
The truth of unchangeable past, I'm hating
That I could turn back time I wish
For my love ceases to diminish

Even though you don't feel the same
Even though you think I'm playing games;
Every day when my eyes meet yours
I see that red line I must never cross
But im straining to keep from you
This unsatisfied love, so true.

If only circumstances didnt hinder
Or embers of the fire didn't linger

Then we could move ahead, just fine
But is life ever that divine?

All these years I have longed
For you to right all my wrongs
Old freind, first love,
I still haven't got enough
Of wandering back to years ago
When we had a chance, but no
We tripped on our feet, look where we are
Worlds apart, our love so far.

And today, as I sit with you
Our differences become so few
Wishing you will sweep me away
And say the words I want you to say.

Though we may walk our separate ways
And end up in a separate place
Deep in my heart I'll always know
That this love, could only grow.

Just stop, and look at me

The way I do, set me free

Accept this love that my hearts sends

Take me now, old friend.

Sweet Surrender

2006-06-04T12:26:00.000+05:30

What's this thing I've never felt?
I find so hard to define
With these feelings I've never dealt
But you're near me and I'm fine.

You came along, to freeze me speechless
But amidst verses swims my mind:
Thank the stars above love has reached us
At last the missing pieces have aligned.

Like rain drenching a dusty day;
Like an oasis upon burning sands;
Like crystal ocean over dry rocks spray;
You washed over me, darling, unplanned.

Sing with smooth voice, blow me away
Flash a smile, I'm weak in my knees
Say u won't leave me astray
Stay for just a minute more, please.

From mystic magic, so astounding
Floats this melting symphony, unheard:
When you are the tune resounding
I blend as its heartfelt words.

Now, swept by this thing, never felt
With invisible wings we soar in wonder
Our every fear, like snowflakes, melt
For to you, I have surrendered.

Fate

2006-06-02T14:27:00.000+05:30

Saddened, stripped, I suffocate
With the consequences of the past
But you call, your voice delicate
I knew that moment, your spell was cast.
'Tis fate.

The rain it pours, it frustrates
Unequipped, deserted by my friends
I curse the weather, it's got me late
Until you pulled up in your sliver Benz
'Tis fate.

A surprise on radio channel:8
As I dream us kissing under the stars:
The song we sang for our first duet
"So close, no matter how far"
'Tis fate

With every move, you fascinate
Your touch makes me levitate
Drenched with love, I dedicate
My life, our love, to Fate.

Higher

2006-05-26T12:48:00.000+05:30

Every day was so happy
Every second a dream
Until reality wakes me up to life
Was false what I had seen.
Frowning is the former beauty
Pain is yet to come round

Deprived of shelter, alone
Walking to a new life, waiting to be found

When love takes you higher, you soar

To a life every man strives for

Climbing step by step, elevating
Yelling and telling anyone
Who was underestimating you

Soon you'll reach up there
Where your dreams materialize
Racing on, unstoppable

With a relentles fire in your eyes.

What lies before me is not a dream
Life is never fully what it seems
I’ve learnt to fight and I’m finally winning
Of these years the pain is slowly thinning
It’s a brand new beginning
My head heald high, the past at my feet

When time was in the rain, on the streets

Deprived of shelter, alone
Walking to a new life, waiting to be found

When love takes you higher, you soar
To a life every man strives for
Climbing step by step, elevating
You know no-one is underestimating you
No force could pull you to the ground

Your faith in yourself will keep you around
You're here, on the peak of the world

Your daring dreams before you unfurled.

The Beauty of the Sea

2006-05-26T12:43:00.000+05:30

As each strong wave pounds on the rocks
I stand, spellbound by the Sea
As the spray and foam quench the docks
I am breathlessly gazing at the blue queen

She embodies the patient and calm
With liquid lips kissing the sliver sand
Submissive to the breeze of the night
That takes her towards the moonlit land

She simmers with indomitable power
Ruining men, with a mere crystal wave
Looming over great cities, she towers

When she is raged, nothing is safe

And her crystal touch, saline

Glistening under the noon sun

Rushing waters, a symphony, divine

She is the joyous one

Nought else can be her
She is unique
None on earth will own her
She is free
And I, I am awestruck

Kneeling before the Sea.

The Playground

2006-05-26T12:40:00.000+05:30

Cautious, I stepped through the grey gates
My world so new, carefree
And I, clutching my mother’s hand
Had butterflies dancing in my tummy

Then a friendly smile, some curious faces
They wanted to meet the new girl
When, you’re younger you’re not so stuck up
So I ran, my hair flying, to the playground

The slide, like a mountain to me
We whooshed down in ecstasy.
The swings, creaking in rhythm
Taking us to the skies with them.
The sand pit of Imagination
Stories and creatures, our simple creations.
And the jungle gym, oh what joy it was
To hang upside down, like orangutans!

Looking back, I see my first friends, who took me in
Lost in the thrill of the slide and swings
And the laughter
How simple it was, with not a worry
And years after,
Our foreheads are only lines of worry

Just a day of cheer
And everything was okay
If only troubles would evaporate
At the playground.

The Trials of School

2006-05-26T12:37:00.000+05:30

First period English class
Start reading Shakespeare
Thou art, thee, someone save me!

Prayer not to trip and fall
Sweaty, dirty sports
I kick football over wall.

Math: too many numerals
And calculations
Answer right; oops! Question wrong.

Trying hard to learn Français
Not understanding
Espanol written on board

Physics, Chemistry, Bio
An experiment
Specimen drowns in acid

Boring history of world
People dead and gone
Who cares about yesterday?

Paints, brushes, crayons, paper
After the art class
Best grade for my doodle: F

Bell rings, finally school’s over

Running home to chill

Newest disaster, “Do chores!”

A Day in the Life of Ann Tipsy

2006-05-26T12:30:00.000+05:30

Call me Ann Tipsy
I’m a bit of a clumsy
Most of my life I spend
Trying hard to fix and mend
All the things I’ve tripped over;
Pick up banana peels I’ve slipped over.

I think it’s mostly because
I live life without a pause
Maybe I’m in too much of a hurry
That I leave everything around me in a flurry

I try to fill my pen
I spill the ink and then
Grape juice falls on my skirt
I have three missing buttons on my shirt
I trip over the garden hose
Can’t find my basketball clothes
Forget to brush my tangled hair
Lost my sneakers’ other pair
Raise my hand for all the wrong questions
Forgot my homework for all my lessons
Accidentally walk into the boys’ lockers
Take my stitching kit to soccer
Messed up the party at my own house
All because I invited circus clowns
Wore a yellow shirt on purple day
Didn’t notice my tulips decayed
Told my friends my cat was dead
In truth I had an iguana for a pet
Used face wash to clean my bike
My boyfriend told me to take a hike.

You must be thinking, “What a twit!”
I wish I was careful, just a little bit
But what can I do, this is just me
I’m the one and only Ann Tipsy
I just pray I don’t falter
And leave my groom at the altar.

Antarctica and Mr. Elf

2006-05-20T15:45:00.000+05:30

Icy winds blew at my face,
All I saw was snow
Not a breathing creature in trace
I had no clue where to go.

Then, I stumbled upon a little man:
An elf from the North Pole.
He was sick and tired of getting
Bullied by “The Troll”.
Said he was on a break from
Taking orders from Mr. Claus
So he came down to Antarctica
To get back at his boss!

I stayed on for a week or two
Hoping I’d survive
In the cold, it’s not easy to live
So I prayed I’d stay alive.

The weirdest things happen there
Stranger than you think;
Imagine shoveling through the snow
In underwear of mink!

Candle wax is a necessity;
Here electricity’s unknown.
Walrus fat is fuel
And fire is lit on bones.

Penguin skin accessories
Are hot in the fashion world
The cool penguins are sweatin’ it out
Thanks to all those ‘trendy’ girls.

Now going to school is the biggest pain
Not because of studies,
If u get lost the polar bears
Will eat you and your buddies.

Well, I survived the freezing cold
Made the best of what I had
Yes, it sounds more than extreme
At least I didn’t go mad
So, I bid goodbye to Antarctica
The ice, walruses and Mr. Elf
To experience its true wonders
You’d have to go there for yourself
(Don’t forget to visit Mr. Elf!)

Big Fat Snail (inspired by Roald Dahl)

2006-05-20T15:44:00.000+05:30

One day in a store right down the street,
(James had earned some money and was getting a treat)
He splurged on chocs, candy and the works
(Including M&Ms, Mars and Perk)
He strolled to a spot, sat down and hail,
His rump was impaled on a Big Fat Snail!
“By gum,” Jim said, “holy cow!”
“How did that get there, how?”
At first it looked like a poor little thing,
But on closer observation, it had the evilest grin.
Jim started sweating, he was utterly scared
Its eyes were bulging, its teeth were bared.
(Here comes the part where he was a real twit.
When I tell his friends, he'll be the class git!)
Jimmy threw it some of his sour candy pops
And soon realized that it like strawberry chocs.
(Duh, snails are allergic to sour candy pops;
They react much better to strawberry chocs)
The snail started bubbling and melted to the ground
The acid reached him and at his feet he found
That he had started to melt and bubble down
And both James and the snail oozed to the ground!

How Awful Is the Rain!

2006-05-20T15:41:00.000+05:30

How awful is the rain!
When water gushes out from the overflowing drain
I wet my brand new clothes
And the muddy road is filled with paper boats.
The cars that seem to fly
Splash dirty water over people passing by.
For hours and hours it pours,
The endless rain,
And I have to stay home doing chores!
Waiting in my room I long to see
The sun come out, or a bird with a sweet melody
Instead, something buzzing in my room
With their pointy ends, hoards of mosquitoes zoom!
Diseases spread from one to the other
Most of us lying in bed
Dreading the medicines brought by our mothers…
The rain is so dreadful and bugging sometimes
But without these regular showers, would we survive?
And yet again, the rain has arrived!

Ten Wacky Scientists

2006-05-13T17:55:00.000+05:30

Ten wacky scientists tested some wine
One got drunk crazy
And then there were nine

Nine wacky scientists had a debate
One got tongue tied
And then there were eight

Eight wacky scientists dissected a raven
One chopped his finger off
And then there were seven

Seven wacky scientists invented special bricks
One broke his brainy head
And then there were six

Six wacky scientists explored a bee hive
One got horribly stung
And then there were five

Five wacky scientists scrutinized the floor
One slipped on a banana peel
And then there were four

Four wacky scientists were promoting planting trees
One got punched by a lumberjack
And then there were three

Three wacky scientists concocted dog food
One digested it
And then there were two

Two wacky scientists blasted off to the sun
One got roasted
And then there was one

One wacky scientist assembled a gun
He shot himself
And then there were none

Chachan

2006-05-13T17:51:00.000+05:30

Come back, come home.
Return to this broken heart
'Tis not your time yet.

I awed you, my Chachan
Like an old song, not God would replace
You float in my memories, hazily.

Just to lay these tear filled eyes

On you
Anything, would I stake
Just come back.

I see you in me,
I see your energy in everyone here.
I see your smile frozen in a picture
A time when we laughed together.

Cheating time, if we didn't part

If I were your little mol again;
We'd watch the fields, as the sun set.

Photographs can never do justice;

Swinging on your lungi

Sitting upon strong shoulders

Looking into those wise eyes;

Pictures are worthless.

Embrace me in those wrinkled arms
As your final goodbye
I miss you too much.

GLOSSARY
Chachan : father

Mol : daughter (pronounce "mole")
Lungi : Long coloured cloth used by indian men as clothing to wrap around the waist. (pronounce "loon-gee")

Love is...

2006-05-13T17:23:00.000+05:30

A strong shoulder to lean on to
A mop to soak up every tear
A kiss on my cheek to wake up to
A buddy to share a beer

A song to make me swoon
A laugh to make my day
A cuddle in the living room
An affirmative that I'm not gay

A crutch when I'm feeling lame
A touch infusing warmth
A sense of beauty when its all the same
A dry towel in raging storms

A raised finger to a jerk
Chicken soup to cure my cold
A hug after a long day's work
A place where dreams unfold

Love is...

You

Shadow

2006-05-02T16:08:00.000+05:30

Silence...
No sound in the alleyway,
Her direction gone astray.
Concrete canvases display
Ghouls of black night among the grey.

Glance...
Inhuman, bloodless spies
Through the corner of her eyes
Her courage with each step dies
The world is deaf to her cries.

Stealth...
Noislessly they follow
Creatures of the moon, hollow
Using only black to gallow
Her words, her screams, she swallows.

Hide...
They reach out in despair!
Stifled by their glares
She evades each piercing stare
And offers a silent prayer.

Run...
Towards horizon bright
The sun, her secret weapon in the dark fight
She escapes from the beasts of the night
As they are doused by the burning light.